Emotions are colliding this morning!!! I am both very happy and very sad!!!
Colin and I met with Ken and Linda last night - they are going to be his new room-mates. They actually are taking Colin into their home and have set up the basement so that he can live with them in the basement of their home.
Its a beautiful home with a walk out basement and lots of big beautiful windows, it does not even feel like a basement. The back yard backs onto a park and the river runs through this park. There are lots of trees and it truly is a beautiful spot.
Ken and Linda's motives are truly in the right place and it really is like a dream come true for our family. They have really good professional credentials and are perfectly suited to do this kind of work.
So what is the emotion? - dagnabit!!! I should be just fine with all of this right??
It's really about another grief in my life. Colin's life as he knows it will be changing dramatically. He will be losing some of his independence. He will need to learn to live with others as he has been on his own for over 20 years.
The reason for the decision to move him is because Colin is a diabetic. For the most part, ever since he was diagnosed about seven years ago; Colin has managed his meds - but for some reason over the last couple of years he has been very undisciplined in this regard. (That is a polite way to say that he has been irresponsible). This is a tragedy because now his blood work indicates big problems. He needs help to manage his meds.
It means he has to change his way of life. Now that he has seen his new home and met his "room-mates" he is quite happy and excited about this new adventure in life.
I need to be open, flexible and accepting and embrace this new change in our lives.
